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Mommy, Where do Free Books Come from? or How to Help Feed an Indie Author

When an author and words love each other, they create a book. But a free book comes from a special place.

It’s trite, but it’s true.  Nothing in life is free.  Book giveaways are a way for authors to promote their books and there is an etiquette for it.  There is a tacit agreement when you accept a freebie book in a giveaway that you will help out that author. You see, in all honesty, we are hoping that the free book recipients will be appreciative of our giving up our precious work for absolutely nothing by reciprocating in the form of a review or word of mouth advertising. If you receive a free book from us, we get nothing for it unless you help us get the word out about our works. We hope you love it so much you want to tell everyone you know about it, and then they will tell their friends and family about it, who will then tell everyone they know about it… You see the pattern, so that’s enough of that.  The point is, word of mouth and reviews can grow and spread exponentially, especially with social media, unless you keep quiet about it, in which case, the possible momentum of a great (or even mildly enjoyable) book dies with you.

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Consider this: A few months back, my husband and I and a friend of ours were out shopping and beginning to consider a place to grab some dinner. We just happened to walk past a restaurant that was doing a practice, pre-opening night and they invited us in for a free meal.  The food was amazing and experience and atmosphere was impressive, so we told everyone by posting on Instagram, Twitter, and Facebook.  By the restaurant (MShack at St. John’s Town Center in Jacksonville, FL) hosting this free dinner night they got free advertising and were able to practice making and serving the food, as well as get feedback from us and the other lucky free dinner recipients that evening.  Written reviews of free books do the same thing as they not only spread the word and inform those searching for a good book that this is one to take a chance on, but the author also gets to read some feedback.

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Tell your friends, neighbors, coworkers, the girl ringing up your groceries. Write a review on Amazon, Goodreads, your blog, or basically any social media outlet you choose.

Do you know many authors?  The majority of us are not rich off our royalties.  In fact, the number of authors able to live off the income from their books alone is minute, as one grain of sand on the beach or a single screaming girl at a One Direction concert.

We can write our hearts out and produce a masterpiece, but unless someone voices to another how extraordinary the book is, nobody else will ever know and it will die in obscurity.

So help a brother or sister out!  Read it. Review it. Let the author know how you feel.

If you’re interested in helping this starving artist click here.

Is the Party over? A Book Review

I’m stretching out of my usual content (whatever the heck that really is) in order to post a book review.  I’m not planning to make a complete habit out of this, but I figured I could throw one in once in a while. After all, I’m an author and I ought to help out my fellow authors, right?

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John Reinhard Dizon’s Hezbollah (The Party) manages to mix nostalgia, music, the mafia, boxing, and Middle Eastern tensions into one story about relationships and what causes people to move on.

The plot moves forward through the prism of different points of view from members of the band Hezbollah, each sharing their own fractures while working to pull the entire story together through flashbacks  and the progression of the present time as they are all faced with the possibility of a reunion show in Megiddo.  The problem is they are all torn as to whether or not they can pull it together again for one more show, especially one that forces them to relive the trauma and loss they experienced the last time, and having to accept that they aren’t all kids anymore.

I love stories with good characters and strong friendships, and this has both.  Though years have passed and not all members of Hezbollah have kept in touch, they all share a connection deeper than they even understand, yet it’s not all rainbows.  There’s an underlying darkness that has inserted itself in their relationships, though they hold one another up in times of need. The reader is able to learn what has happened to each character and what may have driven them to where they end up.

Another quality to appreciate in this book is the author’s knowledge of the music scene, giving it an authentic feel while reading. I recommend this book to music lovers or anyone who appreciates a good, reflective look back on life.

Memoirs of an Ordinary Girl: The Middle-ish Ages, the Soundtrack

Memoirs of an Ordinary Girl: The Middle-ish Ages takes place from 1988-1991, and since music is so important to Drew, my protagonist, I’ve pieced together a soundtrack based off mentions in the book, as well as my personal memories of the time period, for better, or sometimes, worse. Seriously, a few of these songs are awful, but they’re true to the time period. I wanted to make a public playlist in iTunes, but apparently that is no longer an option, so you can enjoy my inclusion of videos instead. Now you get a taste of the fashion too. Let’s hope most of it does not cycle back around.

A great big thanks to Youtube, our modern day MTV.

Skid Row’s: Youth Gone Wild

My favorite band around eighth grade. I was in love with Sebastian Bach and jealous of his hair.

 

My hair now.

My hair now. I swear it’s just a coincidence.

Bon Jovi: Bad Medicine

Speaking of hair, anyone remember when Jon had all that hair?

 

Marcia Griffiths: Electric Boogie

Flashbacks to gym class and school dances.  Nooo!

 

Poison: Nothing but a Good Time

The epitome of glam rock.

 

Milli Vanilli: Blame it on the Rain

Or maybe blame it on the lip synching.

 

Faith No More: Epic

The fish at the end of the video caused quite an uproar, but we were assured no paraphyletics were harmed in the filming of this video.

 

Warrant: Heaven

A humorous note here: their semi-coordinated stage outfits remind me a bit of stormtroopers. A sad note: I believe the front-man, Janie Lane, died a few years ago.

 

Guns N Roses: Welcome to the Jungle

The first time I heard this song one of the skater kids in my class (probably 6th grade?) brought it in and talked the teacher into letting him play it for us. I had no access to music like that back then, but I wanted it!

 

Bad English: When I See You Smile

This song was out not long before I moved and somehow it became the song my best friend and I used to remember each other (my Bridgette, Drew’s Belle)

 

New Kids on the Block: Step by Step

What I hated most from pop-culture of this time period was those stupid NKOTB t-shirts with the florescent handprints, and I believe their signatures.  They were everywhere!  I forgot this song existed until a grown man played it recently in my presence.  Weird. And all these years later… I still find it just as cheesy.

 

Poison: Every Rose has its Thorn

Still a sing-along song for me if it comes on the radio while I’m in the car.

 

Billy Joel: We Didn’t Start the Fire

I didn’t appreciate this song at the time, but I did like the video (even though I wasn’t supposed to be watching any videos)

 

M.C. Hammer: U Can’t Touch This

I think these pants are trying to come back in style. Please don’t let it happen.

 

Vanilla Ice: Ice Ice Baby

Turns out I have the same birthday as Robert Van Winkle, which many young girls were jealous of at the time.  Personally, I was insulted. He moved on to flipping big houses in Florida.  Who knew?

 

Thanks for going old school with me for a bit.  Share it if you like it.

 

 

Leaping Liebsters!

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I have been honored and tasked by being nominated for the Liebster Award, an award to acknowledge up-and-coming bloggers. Truly it is an honor; however, I am in turn to nominate 5-10 other new bloggers for the award.  It’s not that I don’t like sharing… or other bloggers, but I had trouble finding bloggers to nominate. I realized most of the blogs I read have many followers over the 200 follower cap set for the award (I’m also jealous). In all actuality, I think I was fortunate enough to be given a watered down assignment, because I saw other postings where 11 had to be nominated. Whew!  Thanks to The Troubled Oyster, the blogger who nominated me, for that.

Here are the rules:

1- Link back to the blogger who nominated you in your Liebster post.

2- List 11 facts about yourself.

3- Answer the 11 questions asked by the blogger who nominated you.

4- Pick 5-10 new bloggers (must have less than 200 followers) to nominate and ask 11 new questions.  You cannot renominate your nominator.

5-Go to each of your nominee’s sites and inform them you nominated them.

11 Facts about Me:

1- I used to be a closet nerd, but now I’m very open about it

2- My life has been split into thirds in California, Virginia, and Florida

3- I am about to publish my second book, a sequel to Memoirs of an Ordinary Girl: The Middle-ish Ages

4- My eyes are mostly green now, but they used to change between blue and green

5- I hate math!

6- I absolutely love dogs and have two Australian shepherds

7- I do not consider little yappers to be real dogs, but rather another species

8- I am the youngest of three girls

9- Chocolate is my favorite food group

10- I am a converted non-runner

11- I think human trafficking is just about the worst social injustice out there, which is big because all social injustices are unjust

Answer 11 Questions from My Nominator:

1- 3 verbs to describe me? Yikes! Running, Writing, Thinking (the verb tense was not specified)

2- Favorite book turned movie? They usually get ruined, so this one is tough.  Any of the Lord of the Rings movies.

3- Did I read or see the movies first? I saw Fellowship of the Ring first, then read it and the other two books before those movies came out.

4- A silly personality quirk about me? Well, none of them are quirks to me, but I can be a bit OCD sometimes, but selectively so- well, maybe that feet really freak me out

5- Worst pet peeve? The use of apostrophes in possessive pronouns (maybe my quirk is my grammar elitism)

6- What would I do if I won $1 billion? Wisely invest a portion to live off of and then use the rest to make a life somewhere my husband and I could use dogs and land to rehabilitate human trafficking survivors and educate for prevention of human trafficking

7- If I could live anywhere in the world, where would it be and why? I ask myself that question quite often, but I still have no answer

8- What is the worst job someone could have? Being the scooper person who walks behind the horses in parades or someone who has to read and grade high school English research papers all the time

9- How did I get into blogging? I figured, I write, so it’d be good for me

10- Am I a morning person or a night owl? This one is tricky.  My body is so used to getting up early now that I have made myself become a morning person (I do mindless but important tasks for the first few hours because I’m not really a morning person), but if my lifestyle could support it, I’d be a better night owl. The problem is, I have to sleep, but I’m wide awake by 7 am

11- What is the strangest color I have died my hair? I always worked places where I had to have “natural” hair colors, so probably auburn was the most exotic. When I was dating my husband, I lived vicariously through him and we dyed his hair sky blue

And now for 11 questions for my nominees:

1- Do you have any pets and what types?

2-What is your favorite book?

3- What is your favorite genre for movies?

4- What is the most interesting place you have ever visited?

5- Are you an over or under toilet paper roll hanger?

6- Have you ever met anybody famous? Briefly describe the encounter.

7- Your favorite childhood book, movie, or show character from your childhood?

8- Where is your favorite place to blog?

9- Do you have any tattoos? If so, of what, where, and why?

10- Would you rather live in the city, the country, or suburbia?

11- Are you a vegetarian or a meat eater?

Blogs I nominated (in all actuality, I’m not sure how many followers all these blogs have, so I’m guessing here):

http://whaticantstop.wordpress.com/

http://sarahreckenwald.weebly.com/writers-block-or-is-it-blog.html

http://beneaththesunshine.wordpress.com/

http://cyclingforpeace.wordpress.com/

http://seemodernhuman.wordpress.com/

 

 

 

Throw Back Thursday: Sinister Eyes

A Throw Back Thursday poem from 1994, when I believe I was a high school junior.  I once attempted to translate this into Spanish for a class assignment, but I cannot find that and it was probably all wrong anyway.

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Sinister Eyes

There once was a man

with sinister eyes

that could pierce your body through

 

He lived in the darkness

in his own little world,

but longed for something more

 

There came a day

when this sinister man

knew Death was at his door

 

He tried to fight back,

but could not succeed,

then collapsed from an awful disease

 

Now his sinister eyes

are tightly shut,

his arms folded over his chest.

 

It is hard to believe

such a misfortunate man

could have such a tranquil rest.

 

Terree L. Klaes copyright 1994

No Publicity is Bad Publicity: Mixed Reviews

I cannot believe I’m putting this out there, drawing attention to it.  Part of me wants to sweep it away under the dusty bed skirt where the broom and vacuum don’t even reach- but it would still be there.

The unthinkable has happened.  Memoirs of an Ordinary Girl: The Middle-ish Ages got a review of 3 out of 5 stars on Goodreads.  My first C on a mostly A report card. Gasp! (Thankfully, my Amazon rating is still excellent)

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This was a reminder of what I told myself before I released the book, yet I had forgotten.  You cannot please all the people all the time and this world is made up of people of all different opinions and preferences.  It was always only a matter of time before it happened, especially once my readership began to grow. I should be thankful for that part.

I know I had much to learn from the experience of publishing this book.  I was totally on my own when I did it and really a bit clueless.  I’ve learned much since then that will help me improve for the next, and criticism has to be a helpful part of the growing experience.  We learn from mistakes, right?

Most of the issues mentioned by the reviewer were merely matter of opinion.  She didn’t connect with my character or like some of my choices in style, seemingly thinking I had done them by mistake when I had been quite purposeful.  Many adults have read my book and enjoyed the nostalgia factor, but my true target has always been tweens, so if an adult didn’t connect with Drew, I can live with that.  My reviewer didn’t like that the book seemed like short stories all tied together, but I told the story in vignettes on purpose to follow the fashion of a memoir, since that’s what the title says it is (though a fictional one).  All this means is this particular person just didn’t connect with the book.  Not everybody will.  I knew it would happen eventually.  Not everyone likes chocolate or dogs either, and though I cannot fathom it, I accept it.

The funny irony about this particular review is that it came from someone who won my book as a giveaway I did in order to call some attention back to the book on Goodreads while I prepare to release the next installment. I’m glad winning the book didn’t make my reviewer feel obligated to give a five star review if she didn’t believe in it though. Seriously, I can respect that, but I do have two genuine complaints that I hope anyone else planning to review any author’s book will keep in mind:

1) A 3 star review isn’t bad because it keeps the ratings well-rounded and shows people are being honest; however, if you give someone a review over one or two stars, instead of only highlighting what you do not like about the book, try to find a few positive things to say as well.

2) It was mentioned that there were errors in grammar and such, but if there were it was likely done purposefully (the title alone is incorrect).  In the early editions of the book I did find a few typos that horrified me, but I (and others) went back though it meticulously in various formats so as not to miss anything. That is the former English teacher in me coming out. I cannot say it is 100% perfect, but at least 98%.

My last bit of advice today is to other authors out there.  Use my lesson to learn to also accept what you cannot change.  Even if I rewrote the issues this reader did not like, there would always be someone else out there who wouldn’t like it.  Not everyone will love your book, but do you love it?

The Elegance of Grammar

This will seem odd to most people.  At least that’s what I thought for so long.  I felt alone…until last week when I stumbled across someone who expressed my feelings exactly and I realized there are others out there who know.

I was reading The Elegance of a Hedgehog by Muriel Barberry when her character Paloma, a twelve year old genius who is running out of hope in humankind and the purpose for living, perfectly captured my feelings on grammar:

Personally I think that grammar is a way to attain beauty. When you speak, or read, or write, you can tell if you’ve said or read or written a fine sentence.  You can recognize a well-turned phrase or an elegant style.  But when you are applying the rules of grammar skillfully, you ascend to another level of language…I get completely carried away just knowing there are words of all different natures, and that you have to know them in order to be able to infer their potential usage and compatibility…it becomes obvious that grammar is an end in itself and not simply a means; it provides access to the structure and beauty of language, it’s not just some trick to help people get by in society. (pgs 158 & 159)

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I write because I love telling stories, but I also write because I love all the various ways I can tell my story.  Grammar, diction, and syntax can all be brought together in a magical way.  Just writing something because you have to becomes a chore.  But writing because you love and understand language becomes an art…literature.  I don’t want to just write for the sake of writing.  I want to create and explore, to guide emotions with my written words.

And then, the very next day I was reading The Absolutely True Diary of a Part-time Indian by Sherman Alexie when I came upon this great excerpt between the protagonist Junior and his new friend Gordy on books:

“Yes, it’s a small library. It’s a tiny one.  But if you read one of these books a day it would still take you almost ten years to finish.”

“What’s your point?”

“The world, even the smallest parts of it, is filled with things you don’t know.”

Wow.  That was a huge idea.

Any town, even one as small as Reardon, was a place of mystery. And that meant that Wellpinit, that smaller, Indian town, was also a place of mystery.

“Okay, so it’s like each of these books is a mystery.  Every book is a mystery. And if you read all the books ever written, it’s like you’ve read one giant mystery. And no matter how much you learn, you just keep on learning there is much more you need to learn.” (I forgot to get the page numbers for this one)

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So between the beauty of language when it is formed correctly and all the mystery and newness in each book, I basically wish I could close myself off in a book cave forever, pausing only to create my own and to eat chocolate…and bacon.

If you didn’t see the truth in this before, I hope this stirs a revolution in your mind and soul.  If you did but thought, much like I did, that you were the only one, you are welcome.  Now you know you are not alone.

Elle Klass Blog Tour

As it turns out, not only do I write, but I also have a sister who writes. Yes, the talent in our family is astronomical indeed. This week she is doing a blog tour to pump up the release of her latest book, Baby Girl Book 2: Moonlighting in Paris, of which I also had the pleasure of being Elle’s editor (because a sister can really appreciate the anal perfectionism and honesty I have to offer).   Please read, share, and enjoy as I host a bit of her tour on my blog today.

Before moving on to the meat of this post, I just want to take a moment to comment on Elle’s protagonist, Cleo turned Justine, not as a sister or an editor, but as one with a fascination for good characters. I like the mystery of Justine. She’s floating on the tide of a world she doesn’t know, seemingly pretending to be something or someone she is not, but in all honesty, she doesn’t know who she is. She has gone from a life where she was sheltered in anonymity into the intrusive eyes of the paparazzi… and she’s still just a teenager on her own! Sure, she’s naive in many respects, but she has a great inner strength that carries her on.

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Don’t forget to click here to enter the giveaway for one or more of Elle’s books free!

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A spooky short from Elle’s life: A piece of inspiration for Baby Girl

On a bright sunny California day I made a pit stop at the local drug store on my way home from work. I desperately had to have the latest V.C. Andrews novel, which, if memory serves correctly was one of the Heaven series. I shifted my egg shaped, chocolate colored Honda into neutral, applied the emergency brake and happily flounced out of my car with only one thought, buying my new book. As I walked the short distance into the drug store I heard a set of quickening footsteps behind me. Upon stealing a glance, a thrityish man, average looking, wearing an everyday business suit was swiftly gaining ground on me. Something about him gave me the chills so I rushed into the store, grabbed the book off the shelf and wasted no time in run-walking to the checkout. Observing that he was nowhere to be seen I waited in line, checking for his whereabout every few seconds. I safely made it to the cashier, sighing a breath of relief, thinking I had escaped him. As the cashier handed me the bag he walked up behind me, and attempted conversation. I ran out the door, jumped into my car, locked all the doors, and started up the little 4 cylinder engine. As I readied my car into first gear I heard a knock on my window. I had been in such a rush to get away from him I stopped watching. He motioned for me to roll down my window, and asked if I wanted to go have Chinese food with him. I shouted, “No,” and chirped my car out of its resting place. I was sixteen at the time and was scared out of my wits. Thoughts of him being worse than a pedophile swirled around in my brain. The story doesn’t end here. He trailed me out of the parking lot and down many streets. Instead of going straight home, I zigzagged all over the small city until his car was gone. Eventually I made it home safely, but not without parking my car behind the fence so it couldn’t be easily seen and telling my parents all about the blood chilling incident. I was a teen long before cell phones or beepers for that matter, and I wholeheartedly believe that is an incident in which using a cell while driving should be legal. If I’d had one, then I would have dialed 911 without hesitation.

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Charlotte Greenbrier A.K.A Student

I used the power of the internet to try and find information on my mom. I again wasn’t sure where to start so I went back to archived newspaper articles: disappearances, strange deaths, anything that would tell me what happened. I had found a lot of disappearances, but none that were my mom or even close. I looked through deaths, murders and unsolved mysteries. Finally, I found a story about a young woman who was found floating upstream in a river. It wasn’t far from where I had lived and the date was about the time she went missing. It was also within the months of my being alone in the cabin. The body hadn’t been identified and there weren’t a lot of details: she was in her early thirties, red hair and petite in size. The description matched my mom. She had been strangled before being thrown into the river, and her attacker was never found. If this was my mom, was she killed in a bad drug deal? Had she whored herself out to the wrong man? Again, I was left with answers but even more questions. I wrote down the name of the officer in charge of the case and the author of the newspaper article.

I wanted to make phone calls, but not from my room. Any calls made through the hotel were on record via the phone bill. I also didn’t want to be followed by Mr. Dancy Eyes, or anyone else for that matter. I had always been able to melt into a crowd, to be seen but not really seen. Now my face was plastered everywhere, and I longed to blend. Didier had some clothes in my room, so I rummaged through them until I found something that looked okay. A pair of baggy pants and a button down shirt. I pulled my hoodie on over it, rolled my hair into a cap, and took a quick glance in the mirror. Not too horrible, since oversized clothes were in style.

On the streets I needed a phone, an untraceable one… a throwaway cell phone. A few blocks down was a store, something like a jiffy store, the kind of place that sells cigarettes, candy and other miscellaneous items. Inside they had disposable phones, so I purchased one and headed back to the hotel. No good. I didn’t want to go back to the hotel. My sense of anonymity forced the need to find someplace that had no connection to my present life. Spotting a small café with a seat outside, and nobody else around I made my phone calls. I wasn’t sure who to talk to first, but thought the media might be my best choice since they were always so nosy.

The reporter who worked my mother’s case was as good a place as any to start, I thought. Her office gave me a run around and finally patched me through to her.  “Gina Brandt” she said pointedly.

“Thanks for speaking with me. My name is Charlotte Greenbrier. I’m a journalism student and I would like to ask you some questions about a case you worked. I have to write a paper on an unsolved mystery.

“Which case?”

“It was a couple years ago, a woman in her early thirties with red hair found floating upstream in a river.”

“Yeah, she was badly bruised, but it was post-mortem, most likely caused by the stream’s current dragging and bouncing her off the rocks. Her body had been decomposing already for months. She didn’t have any ID, couldn’t find a dental record or a finger print match in the system.”

It was difficult for me to continue talking and listening. The article had run in several different papers within the area, but nothing turned up. She was a mystery woman, whom nobody claimed. I could feel the tears well up in my eyes, and my throat start to burn, but I couldn’t cry, not now. I knew my mom was a junkie and not much of a mother, but she was all I had until she was gone. I wanted more details about her physical characteristics. “Could you give me a description of her?” I asked.

“Sure. She was Caucasian, approximately five feet tall, thin, and had freckles. She had track marks up and down her arms, but that was all printed in the paper. I was in your shoes once so I’m going to give you something that wasn’t printed and didn’t lead anywhere, maybe you can do something with it. She had had a picture tucked into her shoe. It was very badly damaged and the police weren’t able to make out much, but it was a picture of a child. They couldn’t even tell for sure the sex, but the consensus was female.”

I thanked her and she relayed which police station had the picture in evidence, in case I wanted to take a look. After I hung up I had to compose myself. My mother was a loser but she hadn’t left me on purpose. She had been taken from me and she had loved me enough to keep my picture with her.

I paid my bill and went for a walk. I had to think about what I had just learned. What had she been involved in that had gotten her killed? Drugs? I knew it was drugs, well, maybe not. We had lived a quiet and secluded life. Was she running from something, like I had eventually run? Was my life a mirror of hers? Maybe she was a runaway like me but had gotten pregnant, with nowhere to go and no one to turn to, so she turned inside herself. When she was gone, she must have been working because she always came back with money. Maybe she was a whore who wanted to keep her child from that kind of a life. Not that our life was much, but she was there when I was young and unable to fend for myself. If I called the police now, what would I ask them? I had to think about this so I went back to the hotel and snuck up to my room without being noticed, or so I thought.

I sank into the tub with a bottle of wine, and blasted the jets. I awoke to a gentle kiss and nudge from Didier. “Justine, this is a bad habit, you… the tub and wine,” his voice gentle but equally scolding. He helped me out of the tub and wrapped me in a towel, gently drying off my body. Small streams of water from the edges of my hair traced a path down my back. Taking one hand under my legs and the other across my back, he lifted me up and gingerly lay me on the bed. Smothering my body in kisses he sent a quake of hot shivers, and we made love. After, I was about half conscious, and soon slipped back into sleep again.

My sleep haunted me. First, I was running from some man whom I have never seen nor met. It was dark and I was in the woods by our shack, in nothing but shorts and a tank while deformed tree branches scraped against my skin. The man had straight black hair and coal eyes. In his hand he carried a noose. My foot got stuck between two rocks, and from the momentum of my body running, I fell. The leaves caught me. I twisted my head to look over my shoulder, and he was gone. Suddenly, I was twelve years old and alone in the shack. In my next dream my mom was in a restaurant, holding a picture in her hand, and they were arguing. He handed her an envelope and left, angry. It was an unrestful sleep. I woke up feeling my life was in danger and even more confused about who I was and where I had come from. Was my mom even really my mom? Deep down I knew she wasn’t. I didn’t look anything like her.

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Throw Back Thursday: Broken

I’ve been enjoying the embarrassing old pictures people are posting on Instagram and Facebook every Thursday, and I’ve even participated a bit.  Then I thought, “What’s more embarrassing than old big hair pictures of myself?  Stuff I wrote back in the day. So, in that vein I believe I will begin Throw Back Thursdays on my blog every few weeks.

Broken

It used to be a tool,

and every beat was good.

So many beats for you.

I always thought it would last,

and beat a billion more

strong beats for you.

Now it is broken up.

My heart no longer pounds

any beats at all.

It is broken and destroyed,

shattered and crushed,

and no more beats are left.

I wish it could beat again,

but it’s too broken to care,

and too hurt to even try.

Why must it all end?

This broken tool is dead.

It will never beat again.

Copyright 1995

Coming up for Air before I Dive Back in

I didn’t write a single post last week.  Yep, neglected the entire blog.  I was writing though.  In fact, I was doing something possibly more important:

finishing my sequel.

I struggled to keep on track while writing this follow up book to Memoirs of an Ordinary Girl: The Middle-ish Ages.  I even resented it at times.  I loved my characters but regretted letting them grow up, much like a parent would, I guess.  At times I even questioned why I was writing a sequel.  Sequel success is a gamble.  It might be a terrible follow up, causing me to lose the loyal followers I actually have, who would begin to loathe me and my inadequate sequel writing abilities, possibly blaming me for global warming… ok, that last part is a bit over the top, but you get the idea.  It was pressure, and I wasn’t sure my heart was always in it.

This is how I sometimes felt through the process.

This is how I sometimes felt through the process.

Then I would reread portions of the book and remember that I loved what I was writing.  And I was inspired even more around the time of writing the last quarter or so of the book when I read something about “finding my awesome” in a Jon Acuff book (Start).  I don’t have the book handy right now, but I know there was a question about whether you would do the thing you were doing regardless of anything else, just because it’s who you are and what you do.  I write.  It’s what I do, so one day I sat down and started writing a book.  After I finished the book I had no idea what to do with it, so I did nothing for a while.  Then I self published it and other people started reading it and asking if I was writing more about Drew, and I decided I wanted to know what was going to happen in her life too, so I started a second book to help create her further existence.  I wanted to do it anyway because I like Drew.  So I wrote a sequel, and last Friday I put the final words on said sequel.

Now I wait.

I have some editors who need to read the book.  My book cover designer is trying to translate my requests into something that looks awesome.  I desperately need to figure out this whole self-promoting thing. Then I will need to go back and make corrections based on my editors’ suggestions and my own need to constantly seek perfection.  Then, finally, I will release my sequel into the world and allow others to judge my worth as a writer, my sequel writing abilities, and Drew, my beloved character whom I would like to shelter and protect forever.  This is not an easy task.  What if people don’t like her?  Sure, I know she’s fictional, but she’s also me and my creation.

At this moment my release goal is mid to late May.  I’ll update that here as the process continues and I know more specifics.  But I’m going to take a complete break from Drew now, at least for a couple weeks.